Pastor’s loss of faith started with loss of hell

BETHESDA, Md. — In the span of just a few months, Jerry DeWitt went from a respected pastor with a … Continued

BETHESDA, Md. — In the span of just a few months, Jerry DeWitt went from a respected pastor with a vibrant congregation to an atheist without a job.

DeWitt, 42, is the first “graduate” of The Clergy Project, a program supported by several atheist organizations that assists pastors who have lost their faith to “come out” as atheists to family, friends, congregations and communities.

DeWitt, who lives in Southern Louisiana, went public last October when he posted a picture of himself with the prominent and polarizing atheist Richard Dawkins, snapped at a meeting of atheists and other “freethinkers” in Houston.

Speaking in March before a cheering crowd of several hundred unbelievers at the American Atheists conference here, he described posting the picture as “committing identity suicide.”

The response was swift. His congregation put him out, friends cut him off and some family members will not speak to him, he said.

“It is not just finances and it is not just career,” he said in the fire-and-brimstone cadences of his Pentecostal background. “It is everything that you hold dear.”

But there are gains, too. “With a little help from my friends, I have learned how to do more than survive,” he said.

DeWitt’s transition from true believer to total skeptic took 25 years. It began, he said, with the idea of hell. How could it be, as he had been taught and preached, that a loving God would damn most people to eternal fire? “This thing called hell, it began to rock my world,” he said.

From there he read about universalism — the idea, scorned by most fundamentalist Christians, that salvation is universal, and all people will be restored in their relationship with God without any action on their own part. After universalism, he discovered the idea, supported by some neuroscientists, that God is actually our inner dialogue.

“I went from God loves everybody to God saves everybody to God is in everybody,” he said. “When you come from where I come from … it’s not too long before you are” at the American Atheists convention.

His new beliefs — kept secret from friends, family and his congregation — were put to the test when a friend in crisis asked him to pray with her.

“I could not do it,” he said, as the hall grew quiet. “At that moment my conscience outweighed everything else in my life. … No matter how much I loved her, I knew the best hope for her situation was a good medical staff and I wasn’t going to pretend there was anything better for her than science and reason.”

His heart, he said, was “absolutely, totally broken.” He described gazing at himself in a mirror and realizing “that if I could not pray for her that I would never pray for anyone or anything ever again.”

It was then that he found The Clergy Project, plugging into its anonymous online support groups and forums. That was last May.

“I was amazed that there were people out there wrestling with the same issues I was,” he said. “And I began to work my way out with a little help from my friends.”

Today, DeWitt is the executive director of Recovering From Religion, a group that helps people — not just clergy — find their way after a loss of faith.

“Not only can you survive, but you can thrive through this process,” he said as the crowd erupted into applause.

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  • SODDI

    His Pentocaustal family and his friends cut him off. Isn’t christian “love” and “compassion” wonderful?

    Maybe he’ll make some new friends. Atheist or not, hopefully they won’t be the kind of people who care if he is.

    Those christians should just get over their da*n selves.

  • scraps00

    I have often wondered what would make the willfully blind see, what would bring the ostrich’s head out of the sand, what would make an intelligent person pull his I.Q. out of the rigid jig of non-reasoning. It was, finally, compassion–human compassion for the humanity supposedly burning in Hell–that did it for this preacher. So tragically and horrificly ironic that Christian compassion could not reach this level of love.

  • MaggieWhitestone

    Their “love” is very conditional. It lasts as long as they can keep you in line.

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